Journey called Life

I think I have to write about my health and parenting journey. So one day my kiddos can read and understand why and how i choose to go through this journey to be a vegan and gentle parents one day. Yes, I believe i will be a vegan one day but today i am still on the journey to be one since being a vegan and gentle parents are not a destination, but it is a journey.

This is also the journal i need to keep for myself to encourage myself to keep myself on the right track. Yes I still fail sometimes to control my appetite towards dairy based ice cream or cheese or eeg and perhaps grilled chicken. And i am not ashamed to admit it because once again, this is a journey and here is my journey.

Feeling Green

A big jar of my green smoothie this morning. 

Some days i drink green smoothies & made healthy homemade cook and some days i’m just too tired and lazy to make anything so we eat outside and enjoy a cup of latte.  Its called balance. 

Some days i manage to be a productive & peaceful mama and some moments i just couldn’t hold it together. Bad moments don’t make a bad mama. It’s okay for my kids to see i am sometimes do mistakes.  They learn from me how to deal with mistakes and I learn from them how to forgive and love unconditionally. They remind me It’s perfectly okay to be imperfect ❀πŸ‘ͺ❀

Me Nowadays

The words that describe exactly what i feel recently. How day by day i realize who i am and what i want. Yes life is a journey, not a destination. It’s never ending process of learning and unlearning. 

Thank you to my kids, my teachers of life who make me learning and unlearning many things about life.

At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want.

If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.

Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them – that only creates sorrow.

Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.

Rejoice in the way things are.When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Kindness in words creates confidence.

Kindness in thinking creates profoundness.

Kindness in giving creates love.

Respond intelligently even to unintelligent treatment.

The words of truth are always paradoxical.

Truthful words are not beautiful; beautiful words are not truthful.

Good words are not persuasive; persuasive words are not good.

Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.

Lao Tzu 

Beach Time

My sister is coming for vacation from Surabaya. Destin and rene are more than excited to welcome their cousins. We took them to the beach. It was Rene’s first time beach time. She just loves beach very much. She step on the sands and water with no hesitation.
The kids surely had great time there.

I always love to take my kids for outdoor activity. Never once we visit the mall without specific purpose. We never think malls are good place for kids to spend their time, the atmosphere in a mall is never good for kids, especially the junk foods and negativity from being too consumtive for mostly useless stuffs. At their age I want to introduce them to the nature and outdoor activities as much as possible. And yes, of course it is challenging here in this city where it is much easier to find a mall than nice outdoor spot to visit. That’s why i still i have this dream to live the life i want in a smaller and greener town. Who knows one dayπŸ™‚

The End of an (diaper) Era

I always keep this in mind that the childs i am being with today will be one day older each day. They teach me to live at the moment, to treasure each moment because yesterday will only be memories and tomorrow will only be a hope. Enjoy each moment when we are together. 

Couple days ago Destin is officially diaper free. He’s been diaper free when he’s awake since he was 2yo and 3mos. We were a bit late to train him to be diaper free when he’s sleeping because we always postpone it day by day, thinking he would do it once he is ready to. And finally the day is coming. The last day we put on diaper on him. He told us from now on he doesn’t want to sleep with diaper on because it was itchy. So we let him sleep without diaper on and i took him for peeing in the middle of the night while he was sleeping. So he is peeing in the toilet while sleeping. That was much easier than i thought!πŸ™‚

Rene’s 1st Bday

It’s your birthday. How time flies, in a blink of eyes my lil baby turns one. Feels like yesterday when the nurse handed you to me and your brother cried outloud, didn’t want me to breastfeed you.


Happy very first birthday Rene, our daughter.

Mama, papa and hiahia destin are so grateful to have a daughter and sister like you. You complete our lil family.

May we are able to guide, share, lead, learn and grow together with you hand in hand, side by side.

Grow up healthy lil girl..and keep the unconditional happiness within you ❀





eleven mos


walk around the house with this pinguin style, can even manage to speed up her walk whenever we try to catch her doing something naughty

start to imitate what people say. Some words she can say:  “papa..mama…koko…woof..woof… , meow…”

can’t stand still, especially when she saw her big brother is playing with other kids, she would try to join them.

A brave and happy energizer bunny. Mama just can’t believe you’ll be one in few days ahead


The one with Destin

3yo and 1m destin

conversation #1 was in the car when we were going out and not far away from home i don’t put Destin in his car seat. So he stood up instead of sat down and i told him to sit down.
D: why i have to sit down? because stand up is fun
M: i knew stand up on the car seems to be fun, however it is dangerous, you can bump your head.
D: so when you were little did you stand up on the car?
M: yes i did but then i bumped my head, that’s why i don’t want that to happen to you.
D: If i have celebrated many many birthdays and getting older i will scold the little you for standing up in the car.


Conversation #2

M: destin, mama wants to tell you that you are not our son…you are son of other people.
D: *hug me immediately* no mama..I want to be you and papa’s son.
M: why?
D: because you are so beautiful and papa is so handsome and dd rene is so beautiful.


The one with the ‘mummy’

We were reading this fisherprice book about what do people do for living. There was picture of a nanny and i asked destin:

M: Destin, do we have a nanny here at our home?
D: No
M: So who is taking care of you and Rene?
D: Mama
M: So you don’t have a nanny but you have a mommy
D: mommy who?
M: Me, mama is mommy
D: *giggles* of course you are not a mommy! mommy is that man who wore white and white clothes..the one like in the ‘jack and the neverland pirates’

well, that is a mummy sonπŸ˜…πŸ˜…πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚